Archive for June, 2009
” Lost Love “ was a feeling I got when I found this place. It was late afernoon along High way 99 north from Bakerfield to Fresno. I was going to Yosemite a few years ago. I rented a car because my old car died so I didn’t know that at a full tank of gas how far I can go. I found out when I almost run out of gas so I stop by the gas station. It is owned by Korean people, I knew by the way they talked to each other. I filled up and clean myself off then looking for some cold drink. It was sometime in May I think so during the day the weather could be about 80 along the high way. It is hot for spring.
I walked off the store and was going to have lunch which I pack from home in a car. I moved my car under the shade then I saw this garden. It was beautiful and full of flowers. If I had been there a week earlier, it would had been awesome. As that day it was already wonderful. They were so healthy. They were tall, lot of flowers, and the flowers were so big. Till I saw this fountain and the world around me was lifted. It was kind of sad in a way because of the way she looked. At the same time I saw the beauty from her. I felt of the emotion she would has by that expression. The she stands on the top of other ladies made me feel that even she is sad, but she is also strong and hopeful. I felt in love with this view and the story of it. It was special to me so I made this photograph. As I mention about these feeling above so I decided to use a camera moment on my largeformat camera to control the sharpness of this photo.
In a way of thinking at that moment, I want it to look sad. I want it to look lost. I want it to make you feel of loosing, but at the end I want it to say that “ YOU ARE GONNA BE OK “ because you are strong and you must live on. What makes the idea to live on to this photo work is FLOWERS and the LIGHT. This whole scene is full of stories in itself. I made this photograph with my KB Canham 4×5 woodfield largeformat camera. A 72mm lens. Fuji Velvia 100F slide film.
Yes, at you worse day, there are still be a warm light, hope, and flowers, positive part of life, with you. It is not a great landscape vista, but it is very meaningful for me. Now I am not feeling that I do need to make more of beautiful landscape images as I did because I now found out that the true happiness is WITHIN. I want to hold on to my vission, and my happiness to myself.Then I use that to guide my way. This is my personal work. As I am speaking now I found myself seeing the world different then I was before. I am working on my way to make some new body of work. It is different. It is the truth.
I am tired of how people tell others to do what they like. I am tired of the way they think that others must do what they believe is good or right for them. I am tired of a manipulate world. I have met a lot of people who only want to get, but hardly give. I also met a lot of the one that always look for taking advantage from other. How could you live with yourself like that? How could one be happy on someone else sadness? I just don’t get it? It is always all about money, and at the of the day, who can take money with when the death is time?
I am the artist and I am not a business man, I don’t even want to be one. I believe that many people, a good one, know me as a fair person. At every point of my life, I never think of me me me first. I always care for everything around me no matter what it is or who it is. I will continute to live my life this way because at the end of my day I will not regret of nothing. I hope that good people are continute to rise becuase we do need more of them.
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Thank you Robert, http://www.flickr.com/photos/34951343@N00/ for the image of Stephen Shore.
The movie about him please click the link below.
These are some of his work. They are what most appeal to me. I like to share to you. Please look at them carefuly. There are something special within them. Please enjoy.
I have been watching this minidocumentation many times now. I wish to share this to everyone, and hope that there might be interesting to somebody.
Today I have a chance to view this documentation. It is really important for us all. It is happening so close. We must act now in everyway we can to over come this problem. I wish you to have a chance to watch this ” HOME ” Most of the prediction will happen in 2015. It is 6 years from now. I have had this kind of idea within myself for sometime, but after I watched this movie. I wish I can do something about it before it is too late. Eventhough, there is not much of time left, but there will be better than just watch it happen with out doing anything about it. The world is dieing. We are runing to the death end in a near future. The procese of saving the world have began for sometime now, but we need more of us to support in which we can. Please please if you get this message, please act soon. We can do this.
” I wish to everyone who has stop by to read this have a chance to view this documentation, and please do what you can to help. This is doing for us only, but for the world and for the future generations to come. ”
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I have been somehow thinking of home a lot lately. It maybe because of last month some friends came over to visit me and we did a short trip together. The thought of my own during those days were probably what I would be feeling, if I was in Thailand. I almost forget how does it feel like to be around people from the same country. How I was thinking, comunicate and acting were onec how I was before. At the moment it went to my head…umm that what I have been missing. It is a behaviour of my own which I lost it for sometime till it came back. It was good to feel of that. So today I have one of my image which I photographed in Thailand on my first visiting home trip…
Here is my view of home where country side is like. It was near by my parents home, 10 miles. I usually spent my time in the evening after helping in the ranch riding my motorcycle around. I liked to come to the small dam which I remember well from my chile’s life. It is different now because I feel that it is as if it gets smaller somehow. The live style over the dam still stay almost the same. The owner of this boat wakes up at 3:30 am to get out and fishing for a daily catch then sold it to the local market. He told me that someday he catches a lot of fish, but someday just enough to feed the family. As my dad was wondering about how is life of photographer as what we do would be like. He took a read trip with me to the northern of Thai. We did for 10 days. After 2 days, of being on the road, he told me that go out for sunrise yourself and when you done come back and pick me up for breakfast. We had fun on the drive and side seeing. I had a great time with him. It will be a memory of my life time. When we got back, I heard the morning conversation of my dad and my mom which is a usual thing for them. Dad said while telling mom stories we went on. " OH!!! I thought it was easy as a tourist side seeing. It was not at all like that!!! It is a hard job!! He got up before 5 am, drive all day, shot sunset, looking for place to camp or motel, making note, clean up and go sleep at 11 pm. It was like that all 10 days. Why he likes to do that? My mom listened to him quietly. Now I am laughing to myself as I am thining of his words. He thought that he will be vacation on my photo-road tip!!! Now he will think again when I ask him to join me hahaha. As we know time goes by so quick. I wish to go back and take both my parents on the road with me. This time will be more comfortable because my mom will be with us too.
I was thinking about the life style which I had experinced through my time while I was growing in Thailand. This image reminds me of those memories. The ones which were forgotten because of my busy life style today. What I learn today is ” one thing has lost, at the same time one has gain “. Time to time we must sit and give ourselves sometime to review the journey of our own.
As I always say ” Time has gone by, but memory stay still, and timeless. ”
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