Archive for February, 2010
This evening I exposed my last color 4×5 sheet film I have. From last September I had more than 200 sheet in my freezer, and it is now gone. I have not imagined to myself that I have been shotting a lot till I had a thought back of when was the last time I bought films. It is time to buy new ones. I noticed something very imortant today afternoon while I was searching online. It has been tougher to BUY film now than 8 months ago. A lot of then were out of stock! Also some of them are boxed only 10 sheets instead of 50 sheets as they used to be. This gives me a shock moment, and it made me have a thought of my near future works. The thought is about how long really the film has left.
I had not been worried about this issue till this year. It is because of seeing the change at the suppliers. The world is now moving away from the film day to something new with a speed of light. As I am a film shooter, of course I am sad. I wish that there are still people who carry it on a bit longer.
I have continuted to work on my ” Only Vegas ” project. Eventhogh sometime I was busy with something else, I still give myself at least a day to roam my town looking for images I have dream of. It is interesting to see how I feel connecting to locations. I keep finding new spots and it stays exciting for 2 or 3 days at one place then it dies out. Then I felt empty till I found a new place. I also trying to find a balance while I am working. It is the balance between art of photography and a content of the project. I believe that not every images I have made are all fit together. However, I allow myself to explore the possibilities of what I have been given by the way I see, feel and believe when I make photographs. It is hard to do something only you see in your head and believe in your heart. It makes you go very slow. I came to realize that I only can do one thing at a time in order to get the most out of it. So now I spend 2 or 3 days working on something then I leave it a little bit, 3 or 4 days, before I look for something else. This way I have a chance to be aware of what I have done, and how it relate to my content.
This is only the beginning of it when you are making a product. Hopefuly, I can continute and I will be able to complete my project with the same tool. This is the only my concern for now. I used to pay for a 50 sheets box of 4×5 film about $82 for a pro- film. It is now $125 and it’s hard to come by. Now it is cost about $180 to shot 10 sheets of an 8×10. For people like myself who work about 2-3 days/ week, I would need at least 30 sheets/ month for 8×10 ( this allows me 3 shots/ day ) and about 50 sheets/ month for 4×5. Now that I am limited by the income, only 4×5 is already hard on me, but I still manage to get by. It is because the knowing that soon near future there may not be film any longer. The ” only vegas ” will soon become something special. It has already been special to me because I am spending my life along with it everyday now.
Thursday morning, I went back to a spot I photographed the evening before for the different light. It was about 6am and the light was just as beautiful as it can be. I made 4 images and it was done. While I was packing up and watching the beautiful light, my mind had gone to many great places where I had seen a similar warm morning light before. I imagined to myself as if I was there. Suddenly, there was a native american man was walking toward me. The warm bright yellow light was on his face. He asked me ” what date is this? ” I replied ” A thursday “. I could smell that he had been drinking through the night. A little bit later he asked me again ” what day is it ” I said ” the 18 ” then I smiled. He said ” the 18 ” and he was smiling. He was about to walk away from me ” thanks ” was low as he was passing me by. He was walking into a bright warm yellow light to the way home….
At the moment, a felt that ourlives is a paradox beauty. What was he doing here in Vegas? What I am doing here in Vegas?
These images are from the evening of the Feb 18 2010.
Thank you for reading everyone. It’s a Friday. Have a great weekend.
Karl Rabeder grew up poor and thought that life would be wonderful if he had money. But when he got rich, Karl discovered that he was unhappy … so he decided to give away every penny of his £3 million fortune:
“My idea is to have nothing left. Absolutely nothing,” he told The Daily Telegraph. “Money is counterproductive – it prevents happiness to come.”
Instead, he will move out of his luxury Alpine retreat into a small wooden hut in the mountains or a simple bedsit in Innsbruck.
His entire proceeds are going to charities he set up in Central and Latin America, but he will not even take a salary from these.
“For a long time I believed that more wealth and luxury automatically meant more happiness,” he said. “I come from a very poor family where the rules were to work more to achieve more material things, and I applied this for many years,” said Mr Rabeder.
But over time, he had another, conflicting feeling.
“More and more I heard the words: ‘Stop what you are doing now – all this luxury and consumerism – and start your real life’,” he said. “I had the feeling I was working as a slave for things that I did not wish for or need. I have the feeling that there are lot of people doing the same thing.”
I think this is interesting and we all take this differently. Some might think he is crazy, but some might think he is a hero. What do you think?
Lately the weather has been totally different from the past 3 years. It has to do with the weather event of El nino. It brings lots of rain to the south, where I live, and it brings a lot of snow to the north which we are dealing with it right at the moment at the east coast. There are 2 big storms within this week!! I haven’t seen much of rain as I have seen in a past 4 weeks before during this time of year. It is great because we do need water also we need more of water to fill up lake Mead.
This morning is already clear and I am thinking to myself of how amazing it is because yesterday we had rain here like crazy all day. It rained till about 2 am, but when I got up this morning the cloud is totally gone!!! Yeah, I set up an alarm clock at 5:30 am for getting to go Red Rock, but it didn’t happen I just turn it off and went back to sleep haha. Yes it was a lazy moment, and it made me missed a lot of beautiful sunrise. I am so disappoint about myself. However, it is because I have been working on a small project and it needs a lot of good rest. I wouldn’t be able to do it perfectly without a good sleep. I have to use my eyes a lot and if it hurts, it would not work well. Well, there will be a next time.
My class has been ok, I hope. There are 17 people in the class. We are doing something little different than what it has been here at a collage. I believe that I am deliverying the experince of how to do a Landscape photography hands on. As speaking doesn’t give a full experince, I prefer to learn by doing it. Everyone who wants to get good of doing the Landscape photography has to get used to make themselves to get out and learn from a real time experince. Therefore, we offer a field trip through my class and here are images from the past week end.
We left Vegas at 3 am of Saturday morning and it was raining the whole time there. It was great weather for photography for a few creazy photographers like myself, the bad weather is best for picture making opportunity. If someone wants to get good at doing the landscape, then one has better get used to the bad weather. We had photographed some fog and canyon wall under a light rain. We went up to higher elevation for snow. As we wished for, there was a snow storm going on after we got there about 2 hours. The storm was getting harder and harder at the time we were working on our images. There was a moment which my group had experinced, and I think that was a moment of a life time. The snow field, vast and open, was under a dark gray sky. It was like a magic moment. One of us, Arron, photographed it. I didn’t do at the time at its peak. It was too hard of rain and snow. Also the snow was deep above my knees. I could not move that fast, but I photographed it after that moment a bit when it was only got colder and the rain turned to be snow.
The darkness was comming and the rain, as we were going down elevation to a canyon floor, showed no sing to stop. We decided to get a room at a Pioneer Lodge with cost of $50!!!! It is now off season that was why it was $50. Normally, it would be around $ 80-$130. We got a good deal. We didn’t do much that night and each person passed out as a light. I didn’t have enough sleep since a last Thursday night. Unfortunately, I couldn’t not sleep till 3 am again. We got up at about 6am and head out for morning shot within the canyon. The fog was amazing at Temple of Sinawava which located at the end of the canyon drive. The rain still didn’t give up on us, but it wasn’t too hard. We were now prepare by having plastic bags and umbrellas for ourselves and cameras. The canyon after rain is pretty beautiful. The trees has no leaves at this time and lots of drops of water which were on the tress made me feel so fresh. The air was also really clean, you know the smell of dirt after the rain like. It was a great morning. I almost forgot to mention about water falls. It was seasonal water falls here in Zion. It only happen when there is rain and it has to be a hard rain for a few days. I noticed them as I was driving by. I am so sure you will be amazed, if you were there with me.
After lunch, we headed out for an another water fall at the Emerald pool. It was late afternoon and the sky was started to open up. There was lot of water at the upper pool, but this time it wasn’t green color, but it was yellow. We took turn to make photographs. We had made some wonderful images eventhough the wind was strong. The spray of water from the fall were also hard to manage. It didn’t stop us to make variety of shots.
The light of sunset was about to happen. We saw it as we were walking back to a car. At that moment, we were panic and we raced as fast as we could go to make it to a brige to catch the last light. We got there on time, to me it is a little too late, but it would be better if we were here 15 min earlier. However, it was not too bad at all. We grabed the tripods and ran for the light. After about 30 minutes there, we were happy with what we have got. It was now time to pack up and headed home…
A lesson from this trip is…” do not stop what you are about to do just because you think it is not worth to try. The opportunities are always found by someone who seeks for the endless possibilities.”
Enjoy the weather my friends.
An image of Larry’s parents.
An image of Larry Sultan.
Influential photographer Larry Sultan dies
Mr. Sultan was an artist trustee of the San Francisco Museum of Modern Art, which holds some 40 of his works in its collection. More than a dozen of them will go on display starting Saturday, when SFMOMA begins its 75th anniversary celebration. The shows have been in planning for a year or more, and the display of Mr. Sultan’s work will be his 15th solo or group show at the museum.
Here is an artist bio and works link : http://www.wirtzgallery.com/bios/bio_sultan-2.html please click on the project’s names to view more of his works. I promise you that you will be glad to view them. I have not known him personal, but I have admired his works since I have started to realize myself about what is my style. His works show me the way to find myself and continute to guide me more ways in the future. He was a very smart and deep man. I am sad that good people have gone too early. Please rest well. I will always remember you.
Youtube: to view short a view of Larry’s life…http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MlUau7LcpEE