My escape world…
Sometime, we need to get ourselves far away from the real world. There are just too much of everything now. Sadly, it will be even more in soon future to come.
Why do we need more in order to feel completed when we are already completed since day one? Most of us just can not see that.
Humans are designed to live under 100 years. So how long do you have left? What would you do to make the rest you have worth living for?
I have been observing this idea of mine through my daily life. What I see is that not many people seem to care about the fact that is bigger than ourselves.
I am just one human being, and not god. I can not change a thing OUTSIDE myself, but I can do the best I can to be at least one out of many. Hoping that it would makes the different.
I am trying to understand the language of the world.
A week before, spring has finally come to a desert. It was warm, and beautiful weather we had, 75’f. There are flowers all over the town. At the end of the week, there was a storm system was passing here by and push us back in a cold weather again! It was 40’f night and about 60’f day time with lot of wind and big clouds. I was looking into a sky and was thinking of time when I had gone out to chase the storms. Quite a story there I remember.
Today, I too still, I think, chase storms, but it is in a different form. As I get older I tend to look back to our human life a lot more than I have ever been. It is more complex and it fascinates me much more than the real actual storm which I was always pointing myself for directions that I believe I should go on to. However, at the same time I do realized that I do need those directions of a real storm to be able to get myself to be here today. It has been a good omen.
One thing has never changed is LOVE. It provides me of endless energy and senses of wonder to how I look at the world around me. I chose photography to be a language which I can express about how I feel of things in my head. However, all of it has been generated from LOVE I have to the world.
Why photography? I feel that it has its drama in itself. I like the sense of a single moment of time ( for a single image ), and a set of sequencing of images ( many images of one subject ). Photography works the viewers imagination, and that is a beautiful thing that it can offers. Someone might find that photography is a lie, and the others might find that it is the absolute truth. That is what I like about it.
March 11 2012 was a year after Tsunami had hit Japan. One year later now and everything has calmed down again, and life is back on its way. Part of that event makes me change the way I believe about life forever. It brought me back home. It reminds of what most important of life ” A family “. It makes me living my life fullest and not holding back to archive the ” Happiness ”
My late photographic works are slowly growing in its meaning, and ” time ” is a key for that. At the speed of the today world, I would like to just slow things down a bit. Let’s everything flow through me, and I want to feel every minute of everything. There are stories there. A peace in my little world.
note: please click at the images to view larger.
I would like to thank to the Photo Art magazine, the staffs, and everybody who have been involved with this project. I do really appreciate you guys for everything that you have helped me to have a chance to share my works with people once again. Thank you to people who buy this magazine. Thank you to people who have sent the personal note, comments, and friendship to me. Thank you.
A special thank goes to P’ Pui,Thienprasit Chaiyapatranun, K. Mod, K. Pake, K. Yachah, and Dahlia. With out you, none of these would have happen. Thank you.
My photography is once again growing and changing, it is the way it should be ( I think ). I am now interesting in trying to think of how to make photographs of people. This idea of photographing people is come from the way I try to add some mixture into my current body of work, Las vegas. So far I have shot no one for this project yet, but I do have some ideas about it. It is a hard thing to me now to make people take me seriously when I approach to them and ask them about what would they think if I ask them to be photographed!!! Well, the tittle of a landscape photographer finally gets me to a strange place at this moment. However, I will work at it and get better at it. I really really want to start from someone soon so then I will be able to set up a case study of how to make a compelling picture of people for myself, and my models will get a big print to be a tread off between us. I believe that this should be a win win situation… so lets think about it, shall we?
” Do the right thing because it is right. Have the courage to face it “
from a fail off from my wallet piece of little paper with words… a fortune cookie!
Happy delay Valentine everyone…perhaps some flowers, some books, some kisses, and some LOVE.
It has been a long silence from here. Life catches me to do many things, and time was tight for a bit. It is still beautiful at time and difficult mixed all together. That is good coz it is the sign of my own existing.
I wish you all a Happy delay New Year. May the best be yours.
I lately have been working on my Las vegas project. So people might be seeing me in town dragging my cameras here and there in an odd hours. Well, It’s Vegas!!! We never sleep here haha. Since my life is already given to film, and also I am growing up both physically ( old ), and mind, there will be a long while for those images would come along through my process till the day that it will be shared to the world. Most people would get tired of waiting, especially the speed of the world today, my works and myself would be long forgotten. That’s my point. I am not trying to proof anything here, but rather doing this way to share to the world that happiness can be slow and taking longer time to complete, It is find to do that.
We have gotten to do what make we happy.
This is me.
As of lately, I start allow myself to enjoy a lot more things as I had had not done it much in the past 10 years or so. I allow myself to be more free instead of pushing myself too hard to meet my imaginary deadlines which were created by my own mind….That’s not real…. I am here now and it is real. So I am having a good time.
Since I came back from Thailand in late Sep2011, I have been only use two cameras. A KBCanham DLC45 and a Toyo M810. It is quite a short time for me to discover something for myself about this, and in only months I have come to a new stage of how I see and connect to images… Sorry that those images will take a long way through my process till it might be here later…
Well, this is how I spend my time. So how is your?
Please starting to live life everyone…it is limited…
Till next time, and wising you the best.
6:43am Las Vegas.
What is a thing that value most to you? Some is more to have. Some is less to own, some don’t even get to think of the question. Soon someday it will be all no matter. Little moments of life shapes our days, and it needs a wake up eye to fill the blank.
Bangkok, Thailand 2011.
Hello everyone, sorry for a long silence. There were too many things going on in past months. Time is too fast and many time I wonder about where, and how it goes. During 5 months I was away from US, the modern world, back to my small world. Thailand is still as same old as thailand I know except that it is going through a change like everywhere else around the world. That’s not a question actually, but what interest me most is about how it is done. For something to be changed this scale, it must has been prepared, studied, and planed for a very long time. This case is not what Thailand is all up to date about for the most part. For most people there, it is like you wake up into a new world in next morning. There the problem is ” CONFUSION “. One side of the mind feels ” umm! thats a great thing I am in a new world like everyone else. Again at an another side ” oh! how do we deal with it? ” The result is what it is happening right now there
” someone, somewhere… and in the between ”
This case study has come to my mind before I left US for a while, but I wasn’t prepare myself for this size of the changed. The past 11 years I have lived here in US. Therefore, things here are up to date with the world speed and every changed that has happen is a minor but steady. I refer it as a season, for myself. Nothing I have to be surprised about on my everyday here. The point is here ” It is not like what is happening here at all in Thailand “. One of my experience was got into a line, very very long one, to buy a Krispy Kreme Doughnuts!!!!!! It cost me almost 700 bath for a dozen of donut. That was a 2 days minimum wage of the income of someone there. You have gotten to see it to believe what I am saying here. I would say the word ” insane ” is too polite to refer to it for my idea. The worse part, to me, was to see fellow Thai people got into the LINES to make a few people to be more richer than they already are. Wait!! I forgot to mention that for someone that don’t have much of money enough to buy it then, but so they save up money till it’s enough to buy the product!! It is just because they get to have it like everyone else… That’s the most craziest thing I have come to experience.
A cell phone too has become something over kill there. It can be afforded everywhere you can imagine even a 5 year old can have one!!!! My question is why are they going over board on the FEE and a cost of the phone itself and you are not getting to use all of it abilities such as a 3G net work was on hold for years. It is just right before I left Thailand that they opened the net work. The worse part is YOU, COMSUMER WHO SUPPORT THE COMPANY, must PAY for the new net work. While everything now is unlimited in US and I am sure in many other countries, but for Thailand you are auto charged as soon as when you just turn the 3G net work on, when you turn on your WIFI net work, and etc. It is a power of CONTROL, and has anyone there realized whose control it. Why do they want something which they don’t need. Oh!!! it is a fashion!!!! Here, in US, you get a smart phone coz your life lives in it, rely on it, and the system and fee are great. On the other hand, there are some but not much of people who can afford the US way. However, it is less than 15% of a nation population.
The idea of ” I must have what is a trend even if I must be sufferd to get it or I can have it, to show it off, with out using its features coz the fee is insane “ must be re-wired in Thailand. That is too sad for me to see and experience.
I am saying here is about that it is good to catch up with the world, but first you have to gotten to get yourself READY in EVERY WAY!! A lot more infomations are needed there, by the responsibility service providers. Don’t take an easy way out and leave it to the consumers to deal with the consequences which are crated mainly by YOU.
It is broken in most part there and it needs to be fix with the right tools from right people. As myself a Thai too, and one of a world population, I am asking that it is time for everyone becomes one, everyone becomes part of it ( part of the new development, and part of the new world ). It is must be the end of ” I am rich and too bad that you are poor ” coz with out the poor you can’t be rich. So why don’t we try to live together in the between. The world is changing to a new direction and we will see that everyone is smart and independent. Everyone want to be part of everything as a one voice that can be counted and excepted. Soon it will get back to where we began again by doing trading instead of selling. The new world is all about surviving not the saving. Be prepare for it. remember that human is not designed to be alone.
The image above is from a ride by train from Bangkok to my parents town. It is just little over 2 hours to travel there by a car, but it takes about 4 hours by the train. While I was traveling in Thailand I didn’t want to bother others people too much coz they too have to deal with their lives, even my own parents. So I try to do everything I could to reduce the possibilities of getting help. Picture of me carrying all the equipments arond traveling seems to be fun and advanturous, but in fact it was hard and dangerous. I was carried over $20,000 in cost of equipment around everyday. Therefore, I must find the way to protect it my best, and the train was one of my solution coz the bags were always above my head. I love the train as long as I remember. I love the lives which have to deal with it. I like to watch and observe everything of it especially the people. It has become one of my case study.
I often ask myself while thinking of it ” what are they thinking , what is the thing/s they are dealing with, what problem they have or do they have some problems, Are they happy with their lives? What are they thinking of their future to be like?, and many more.” It’s complicated! Well, at least it is only in my head, and maybe I am myself going crazy here… I don’t really care what others think of me, but I am happy to live this way.
Today, a world of a pretty landscape photography is taken away from me by time( I am not much to be excited about it much anymore ), but it is replacing with a new and personal view to the world. I am glad and exciting to FEEl, work, and live with it, and how I express to the world remains the same by the used of this meduim as known as photography.
Living life everyone…. living it fullest.
ps. Thank you to everyone in Thailand for allowing to meet and share my time with. It also allow me to get to know myself much better by meeting you. Thank you.
It’s a beautiful Saturday afternoon here in Bangkok. There are lots of cloud on the sky implying that soon there would be rain. Nothing unusual for this rainy season. Yesterday, I spend my evening walking with my camera in the city. I made a few images along my way. Bangkok is a big city like many big ones around the world, but to live in this city is really difficult. I admire BKK people a lot more than before. Actually, I never see it this way before coz I was one of them. Now, Lots of people I met and share experinces with me during this 3 months. They show me of ways to look deeper into Bangkok and Thailand which I have never thought of.
Most people work 6 days per week, and from 9am to 6pm. Then stay on the bus ride home till 9:30 or 10pm. It depends on the distance and how bad the trafic. It is like this EVERYDAY. They are very patient. It is not that they WANT this way. They just have this way. Now we are based on the new minimum wage which is going to or has been done by the new goverment of 300 Bath/ day ( note: it is now 30 Bath= $1 US ). That come to total of 7,800 Bath which come from WORKING for 6 days/ week and AT LEAST at 10-12 hours/ day. This is a very easy math that you me and everyone else can think it over and then a result is that it is NOT enough to cover the month of all the expenses such as the rent about 2,500-3,500 baths/month for a small apartment in the city. The meals which would cost you at least a 100 baths/day ( based on a regular food ). The transportation fees are about 50 baths/day ( no taxi, tuk-tuk, sky train, and a mortocycle taxi ( yeah!! that’s right a Thailand style ) on a plain bus rides ). Only this as a principal expenses as mention above which not inclouding many other things it is already exceed the income that they earn for that month. Adding up to time that it has been going on like endless that’s why most of a labor class are always poor and never get out of debt. You have gotten to come to experince Thailand for a while to see what I say is from a fact. However, Thai people still mange in the unimaginable ways to LIVE through the day with maybe a little hope that tomorrow something new, something change would come.
This is where I realize about why Thailand has been developped so slow or maybe almost no develop at all. There are too many limitations within the structure. Unfortunately, The structures of this country are controled by only a handful of banks, private companies, politicians ( the corruption ones ) and a few more of money and power hunger ones. Looking into the detail of the CEO titles…they are the same people!!!!
Sadly to say that money still has more power than pride and resiponsibilities.
Once you die… you go with nothing is the fact. Why don’t we leave some good things behind?